I'm not sure how old I was when I realized I could do this.
I have a Think (concentration on a place in my mind/brain/head) where I can focus and give myself an all-body orgasm.
Probably, I realized I could do this when I was about 12, since that seems to be the year when such things were flooding in. Also, it helps when I'm having pain as an experience I can call on at any moment's notice and enjoy some pleasure and not be in pain. I can remember doing it in middle school to alleviate pain from my broken back.
It's not totally pleasurable, even though I call it an orgasm. It's also not the same as a sexually stimulated orgasm, like if I was to have a fantasy or desires that way. It's more like a pure energy or activation that comes from nowhere and doesn't mean anything on its own.
When I do it, I can feel it especially in My Lady Parts, and also in my feet, also rising up to the top of my head.
I can barely move or breathe while I'm doing it, and I can't hold it for very long because of the breathing parts and intensity. I feel like it activates all of my nerves at the same time, though some of my body seems to be more lit.
Over the years, I've played with it enough to be able to give myself varying degrees of its effects so that I can breathe and also hold more thoughts at the same time as having it activated. Though, I have not played with it enough to have it totally mastered.
I had an alternate theory that I might have a brain button for giving myself a momentary seizure, and that was a lil spooky, but not out of the question.
I'd really like to study this, since I feel like doing it at will and not with any sexual intent is interesting and probably not very common, since nobody much talks about such things.
Is it Kundalini Energy? I dunno.. I was doing it without any name for such things, but the way activating it in my head and then feeling it from the area of my Sacral Chakra and then the instantaneous way it fills the rest of me and affects all my nerves and parts makes me think it must be some kind of shortcut about energy.
I've played with it some while setting intentions or while attempting to manifest things, and I'm sure there's an energy event going on that affects my story and Paradigms. More Experiments are obviously going to be going on with it.
Do you know anyone else who can do this? I'm mega curious about it. I don't have to concentrate hard to make it happen, and I can call on it while, sitting, laying, or standing anytime I want.
Anybody with a brain scanner ready to see what I've got going on in this weirdo brain?
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