Ascension is A Rough Ride: Time to Wash My Head

I'm probably gonna have to make this topic a series "Ascension is A Rough Ride" since really, no matter how much control you think you have on it, your story-ego parts that are experiencing it all, aren't the parts that are in control over the thing. The schedule is a prescription for healing you of your shadow, whether you knew you were going to do that or not. 

For me, I knew. 

I decided from as far back as 20-years-old to embrace being a shaman. Before that I had said, "I Walk My Own Path" from as early as 12. I was a teenager in the self-help section of the library and knew it's where I belonged. 

When I had my Rebirth Ceremonies in June 2023 and lots of "as if compulsive" Rituals since, I've even had my telepathic guides inform me that this process is ascension. They told me clear as day. I chose not to doubt it, not to fear it, to walk right into it. They don't tell you there's a gauntlet between the regular world and Narnia because kids are still light enough not to have a gauntlet yet to face. I had one as a kid and even managed to bring Narnia with me into this world. 

OK, Narnia is called the Paradigm Paradise now. I didn't forget. I'm not sure why anyone would hide something this amazing in a closet besides.

Closets are fun. I, a witch, got ran out of the broom closet I was napping inside of at Rockafeller Plaza. Later, I was a lightbulb and napped in the lightbulb closet, which I also got ran out of. But Robin Williams' ghost had showed me where it was so I knew I was allowed. **Gonzo Mythmaking**

Today, my head has all the pressure. My crown chakras are having some ish going on with them, and I know I'm gonna have to go and bathe in the creek. 

I keep talking crap again about how I'm going to be Shadow-Free and how my light is gonna be so bright that even other light won't land on me. What a trip! I keep imagining it as literally as possible, which is even more fun. Visualization & The Mystery.

When I was in North Carolina and doing these ascension things and my energy would need cleaned up, especially when all these crowns are activated and extra signals are pouring in all at the same time. It's uncomfortable and real work. And with crowns, they teach the higher-self one in yoga, but there are a bunch of them for me, even if regular weirdos only have one at a time. So my head gets hot. Real Hot!

I'd finish some rituals and be so worn out, my head BURNING. And so about that time I'd tell my guides and angels I was ready for the River, and they would send me to someplace on the Neuse River near Raleigh. Always somewhere I could (usually) be nude or get in the river and wash. I took Dawn Soap with me and had a pitcher for pouring it over me. 

Sometimes the water was COLD-COLD-COLD, but when your head is burning because it's being used like a cosmic antenna on this weird Earth satellite, releasing things to the earth through grounding and being in flow with the earth's water veins is the best remedy. I'd sometimes get all the way in, but when it's dark and you're swimming alone with the alligators and who knows what on the bottom in a state known to have river mermaids -- maybe standing on the boat dock isn't the worst idea. It's not the most fun idea, but I try to be safe and wild at the same time when I can. 

Sometimes my fae watchers would be at the river, looking like someone I know from somewhere else at the entry to the parking area, no car around, but a guy. They're really there to reassure me after a big time of doing sacred duties, and some of these mystery appearances have been so personal in who they appeared to be or how I felt natural to greet them. I'm gonna try and tell about them, but one of the first rules of Shaman stuff is that a lot of it isn't for anyone else but you. 

River water and creek water are energetically cleansing as well as physically cleansing. Standing with my feet in the water while I washed my head was just as important as putting the cold water up there. 

Sometimes when I want things to leave the energy of my life, I also send them on the river and release things that way. Sorry about littering, but it was the better option at the time. I've tossed all sorts of strange in there, and felt a total release. 

Wouldn't it trip your shit a little if your spirit guides showed you through your dowsing power how to go to the Elizabeth access around death-doula rituals to Queen Elizabeth while you were receiving some special energies from her? Wouldn't it? I mean... it's not like I planned some of these things even a little. I would find out in the moment a lot of the time what was going on as it was unfolding, and I even love that part the best. 

Been having a lot of points in my signs and energy about upcoming important deaths of people who are carrying a lot of public consciousness energies on them. I'm not enthused to the idea that these are going to happen back-to-back. But I know I'm not going through them alone, I'm not in the backseat, but I'm not the only one making these things happen. No spoilers. You email me if you want to guess.