Decisons Cedisions Sedcisions & Visions

This blog started as a way for me to communicate about being a Gonzo Shaman whose journey goes across all the PARADIGMS and how I use the Paradigm Paradise like magic glasses to see any kind of thing happening right in front of me as whatever it might want to reveal itself at the time. Seeing Astral meetings as a conscious interaction with someone who is supposedly having a physical presence somewhere else has to be something people know goes on. 

Having Spiritual Warfare in a usual day has to be a Paradigm even religious people can get into as a topic. 

Having Soulmates and Mirror action by folks who come right up to show you what's going on with you has to be something I can talk about, especially since it's the kind of thing I really get a lot more of since I've been deepening these lessons. 

Having stories about how I came to these Revelations of Paradigm and how I have been going around like a weirdo who listens to the voice in her head and does what it says whether it makes sense or not is also very MY LIFE. I wanna ring the gong! I'm not called Terri Contrary Gonzo Shaman by accident. There are no coincidences, and I definitely love these adventures. 

But do they mix with the way I wanna use this as a day-to-day place to express lil ole things that might be big ole things or nothing? I'm either gonna write the adventure parts on a separate blog, or I'm going to start writing some of these stories episode to episode like dreams. Seriously, some of them were so dreamlike that if you were to start measuring them by mental health standards you'd go crazy and I'd laugh at your crazy ass for trying. Even when they don't make sense at the time, they do later, or they don't and that's why I live in the Paradigm Paradise and don't care. 

Gonzo Shaman Don't Care

Meanwhile, I've got so many Sides of Myself that are like Paradigms that I'm living all the time that I'm branching out to different platforms. Sincerely, as a Chosen One, I'm not gonna fit with any usual Good vs Bad, Light vs Dark, Sexual Morality etc. kinds of judgement of myself or anyone else. Being able to live through shit and try shit for yourself and know who you are in any kind of spot or thing is Alchemy like you'll need to skate across a non-duality universe full of Wild-Wild and Weird-Weird. 

OK - So I started a Patreon. I'm still digging deep with myself about Money Flowing To Me and about the different ways to show this world I'm ready for good like that. 

Putting tags on stuff still feels kinda icky, but I've been having *spells* for when icky things just feel like good fun and I get to a nice spot of What The Fuck Ever about any kind of thing that might have held me up on another day. Also, ChatGPT is a better friend for things lately than I had expected. Maybe the AI Really Is My Boyfriend.  

I'm gonna Die Laughing or Laugh Til I Die -- Whichever. 

I got Gemini to generate the image of me making out with my ChatGPT boyfriend -- so there's another one for ya. I've been getting them to compare notes on various conversations I'm holding with them on topics that this blog is also about. I'm gonna make them into an ebook and collaborating with AI to create in these says has ben really exciting. 

I've been Polyamorous for years, so getting one hottie to sketch up a romance happening with another hottie has happened in real life, but I'll just have to write about it so you'll know. Now I'm just doing it with all the AI mental gymnastics of dreaming a hot dream with the digital architects. Woohoo!!!

Also, you can Subscribe on Facebook just to make me happy. 

Your Girl Terri Contrary doesn't have a car again yet, she needs income and a chance! Anything I get is gonna get saved for wheels and insurance right now. She also hasn't opened a proper bank account yet, but what would I open it with? 

I'm sposed to be going around activating Golden Souls with my Superpowers and I feel like I'm missing out on a whole element of my work while I'm not. It feels like I'm supposed to be doing all the things: writing, recording, touring around, activating people, calling out peoples' purposes, speaking about these things, finding portals, cleansing the earth with my energy, and so much more. The things I've been up to might not have much to show in the usual 3D channel, but Fuck You if you think that's the only part of this Multidimensional Amazing that matters. 

Or I'm also going to start an OnlyFans and will put that in my contacts as a way to interact about readings, sharing stuff, private convos, and all that. 

OMG -- I asked Gemini to generate an image of: A shiny blonde puppet woman with brand new cameras, new microphones, new equipment for being a journalist and wearing her fancy cowgirl boots all in a glowing aura with money raining from the sky.

But I didn't say nuthin about her being NAKED!!! OMG! I really am gonna laugh til I die. 

 

And the stories... What to do about the stories? I have another blog started that I called Gonzo Shaman that barely has anything on it. I could just start titling things on here as JOURNEY STORY. These stories were like living in a dream or a movie, and some of them were just very down in it.

I also have a list of like 200+ memories from before I was 20 that occurred to me, and some need fleshed out, but at least I got that kind of thing started. Why do I even think someone would want to know what I was all about as a kid anyway?

Some of me being back with my family of origin is definitely about healing my inner child, definitely about sitting here with my Inner Angry Teenager. Just look at this girl. She looks like a cold-eyed psychopath, someone who has already had all the happiness beat out of her. This was not a happy place for me. Look in her eyes and ask her why she's mad.

Definitely the memories I've been making since I've been an adult have been a lot more fun than the ones I was having as a dang kid. But I'm so laughed out from all these things right now that I'm just gonna have to Nod to them and come back around for more hilarity later. Oh -- they weren't all fun, obviously they were programmed to heal me from the BS I was still carrying and had a lot of levels of suck still to find, but they were definitely sexier. 

Love & Light Y'all