I get Icked-Out by Plastic Surgery

I get Icked-Out by Plastic Surgery, but I have also been shown by my guides that I'm going to have to accept some body modifications along the way. I've lost a lot of weight and I'm aiming to get back on that journey again really soon. I mean, I think I've done pretty good even when I was homeless and going around without any control over diet. Exercise has been more of a given in some of the scenes, like when I was homeless and had to take public trans and also had my happy to push me spirit guides saying "keep going" all the dang time. 

Keep Going Paradigm

Meanwhile, I'M DEFINITELY NOT GOING TO USE PLASTIC SURGERY ON MY FACE OR TITS!

Or DANG -- MAYBE MY TITS!!

It's pretty likely that I'll get the glow-up on my skin situation around my tummy, under my arms, and legs. I'd be super about those areas getting the skin sitch handled, but probably I'm gonna wanna lose another 75 pounds or something. So bleh... I know how to do that, but it will take time, resources, and my dream spa/gym. 

Also, I'm VERY NOT INTERESTED IN WEIGHTLOSS SURGERY LIKE BARIATRIC KINDS!! I have lost so much weight over the years that I know as long as I have a stable spot, control over my diet, time to fast and escape the rat race, a big ole bathtub, and get plenty of sleep -- then I probably don't even need that surgery. Shedding some of my grief from different times of my life might even be doing some of these things for me. I have carried some of this shit so long it could just fall off.

then

now

No really, though... I'd rather not alter my insides just to impress someone with my outsides. Not in a surgery sense anyway. I've already done the Inner Journey and there's only light in there. Light!!

I'm ready to transform my body. The last time I got into this shit I found out I was a buddha. How cool!! Honestly, if y'all call me a Buddha because of my Belly -- I'm gonna fuckin own it. 

then
(2009 near my 350lbs peek)
Also, I kept this one in my Krav journal so I could keep reminding myself how far I had come. It might not work like that for some people, but I owe that girl in the picture a lot of love, and I'm gonna keep finding more of it to show her. I love you Terri. It wasn't a mistake. It was a lesson. 

(2020, My Birthday, About 210lbs)
I was definitely wearing Shapewear, but who cares? 

(About 2012 with different denture)

 

My face is great. I really am gonna need new dentures, and some more attention to my dental health around my face or glowing up anything that way. 

I think my face has changed a lot over the last 10 years especially. The new top denture was definitely part of that. Pressing it into my upper pallet had been something that pushed my face out a lot that way. Also, I had figured out the thing about nasal breathing and that has made a lot of difference. 

Also, I had figured out my allergies to pork, beef, lamb, goat, deer, etc., and that the way this allergy affects me is to have infections and cysts. Some of these infections were sinus and breahing problems, so knowing about that and avoiding those foods as an allergy has made a lot of difference overall. 

Also, I give myself face massages and do face yoga, and when I'm more consistent about these you can really tell. I also have a thing for Preperation H and hemmorhoid medication for my face and feel like it draws off all the swelling, but who wouldn't want these cheek bones. 

When I was doing Krav Maga and really more on a physical improvement journey, I also liked how "rangey" my face looked. Kinda the same as when people go through bootcamp. 

I feel like some more photos of my transformation during other periods should be on here, but my head hurts and I don't feel like doing all that digging around in my photos. Probably because I would miss my favorite clothes and stuff. I had some cool clothes. 

I used to laugh in water yoga that I was "Going to Be a Wise Woman When I Grow Up" and that they had sent me to old people boot camp, since the Wellness Center I was going to at the time was mostly retired people and I was a housewife there in the daytime. 

Seriously, though. Unless I get too dark on my upper lip or some kind of wrinkles change my mind, I don't see myself going the plastic surgery route. 

I'm also really sensitive about seeing it on others. Like, even if I don't know... I can tell something is up with their face, and it gives me a feeling, a not good Icked-Out kind of feeling. Wish I didn't even get that feeling because it distracts me from the people and from their importance and message, but when it makes me feel like their face is fake then I also have a hard time believing what they have to say as well. 

Sorry -- just my feelings.