Paradigm: I'm NOT FOR SALE

I've been asked about making and selling my hats. 

I crochet groovy hats and wear them as part of my Shaman Regalia, and I make other found art or things or add extra scarves anytime as part of my personal regalia, like a style but really I let my inner child, inner energy guide pick my outfits. Colors or symbols or textures etc. Any of these might mean something different on different days. I really love Cowgirl Boots, scarves, hats or crowns, and wearing a dress over pants anytime. I think people should let their inner child dress them. I get really sad to see everyone trying to be boring as a survival plan against Standing Out. 

If they're Outstanding, I'll probably make them one For Free. 

I love making things and love giving them away. I ALSO LOVE THEE WORD FREE -- So, So, So, So, So, So, So, So, FUCKING MUCH! 

And I like to have things given to me. Funny enough, giving little things with spiritual significance to me is like giving someone a whole lot of something special in the higher dimensions. As above, so below and all that -- I like the happy Fairy Juice Sizzle of giving or receiving. 

Do I know the rules for dealing with those Realms? 

Nope

Do I probably get myself in Other Worlds of Trouble anytime because I give or take things from or to the wrong ones? 

Yup

Do I think The Universe is Gamified and that all these Paradigms are just the Grooviest Way to Live and let all the obvious tossing and turning with finances reveal that I've Got My Lover in here, and he's playing Universe Games, too. (There I go Channeling Again)

To me, the hats are crowns, the doodads are trophies from whatever level of learning or progress I've been making about mystical things. Sometimes the hats are covered in stories, things I've collected organically that are symbolic of winning and knowing, things I've been given by someone special that signify being acknowledged and loved. 

How am I supposed to make someone one of my hats if I'm not walking their journey? 

I am making some crochet medallions that are like mojo bags or pockets on a necklace. And these also have a Special Shaman Medicine element about them. But no matter how I have been struggling to get by, I can't seem to make myself put a number on them or put them online or anywhere for sale. I'm gonna take some more photos of these soon. So far, I have been giving them away as I feel called to do that. I figured it would be a good alternative option for girls who wanna bring their sacred crystals and get tired of those lil bitches poking them in the tit cause their bra is where these end up. 

Am I gonna make this a Paradigm that Doesn't Exist, since Paradigm Paradise is all about things that are real and unreal at the same time?

Maybe

I am struggling some of these things the same when it comes to this blog, and I've been feeling ookey about money and involving my Love or Mysticism, my Gifts, to any kind of Financial Return. It's like there has been a disconnect for a long time between being able to offer my gifts and work my purpose and then also ask for money in the process. I am what I am, and I'm my own. Even when times have been tight, I have not felt like it was right to challenge these feelings enough to change. That is guided from somewhere, some higher parts of myself that are pretty fucking stubborn. 

How I'm feeling about money and such goes a bit like this: 

Ads = Gross

Patreon & Subscriptions = Acceptable (But I haven't got there yet.)

Sponsorship & Friendship = Acceptable

Donations to my Purpose = Acceptable 

Commissions for Items = Acceptable (See... these could be hats!)

Adding my PayPal to this Blog = Acceptable (and Coming Soon)

Hiring me as a Shaman = Acceptable

Promoting My Message through Video Platforms = Ewwww (But I'm going that way whether I like it or not, cause the digital world is gonna make me.)

Sessions for Brainstorming = Acceptable

Using my Ideas to Build Businesses = Acceptable

Hiring me for Writing, Photography, Modeling, Anything = Acceptable (Though I really dislike the idea of being anything but authentic and have some quirks. I'm quirky.)

Set time with me for Interviews, for free or paid 

I'm not ready to start an interview platform. Don't I have enough going on? Yes, if I get a chance to be interviewed about any of these wild topics, I will be glad to ask good questions. I prefer conversations to interviews and love the way these things unpack organically. 

Giving things away, as I discussed a bit on the Page I made for Shaman Services was something born out of discovering that if I was working as an independent photographer, then my real friends wouldn't be able to afford me and so Giving My Work as Offerings of Love would be better than charging. I also didn't care if strangers could hire me.

What part of all my feelings that stop or block me from stuff comes from Spirit? 

All of them

What part of chance encounters and meetings with people who offer opportunities comes from Spirit? 

All of them

What part of Being Lucky as Fuck and having things turn into Amazing Miracles comes from Spirit?

All of them

Changing myself to live in any of my Paradigms has been hit or miss. If it's a miss, my guides help me get excited about things so that I'm somehow less grossed out. Wouldn't it be funny if all this queasy feeling was because I'm gonna be a fountain of money and it's just gonna start barfing out of me anytime? 

Knowing that my guides and I are making me into someone Incredibly Special and that all of these things I *could have been* about anytime but wasn't interested in or didn't embrace, or all the things I never made into a business even though it got dreamed as one, all these ideas I've been hoarding are on Divine Timing. 

If I had been Very Independent in my finances before I left on this Holy Shamanic Walkabout, I couldn't have discovered the lessons I needed from Worlds of Lack and Worlds of Homelessness, Worlds of Charity. I wouldn't be here with my original family to re-live the reasons that set me into self denial and Paradigms of Lack. 

Being present in these places was valuable to me, more valuable than the money I might have made being For Sale. I'm Wiser. I'm Wiser and I don't mind saying so.

So, I'm NOT FOR SALE -- More than any other reason BECAUSE I'M IN GOOD HANDS AND HAVE EVERYTHING I NEED AND DON'T HAVE TO SELL THINGS I WOULD RATHER GIVE AWAY TO SURVIVE, EVEN IF I HAVE TO LEARN TO ASK FOR HELP WITH THINGS I DON'T HAVE MONEY FOR AT THE TIME. EVERYTHING IS BETTER WITH A MEASURE OF LOVE, EVEN RECEIVING. AND I HAVE TO  BELIEVE IN MY WORTHINESS TO GET ANYWHERE WITH THIS. 

I'm worth the time. 

I'm worth the attention. 

I'm worth the money. 

I'm worth assistance to my genius. 

I'm worth studying and discovering

I'm worth a billion hoarded ideas. 

I'm worth a mountain of treasuring for CHANNELING.

I'm worth listening. 

I'm worth inclusion. 

I'm worth romance and enjoyment. 

I'm worth luxury. 

I'm worth appreciating. 

But you can hire me for things. I might even give you a hat or some item that mean something as a bonus From My Heart On The Astral Plane