Paradigm: Writing to The Collective

first, you have to know I have a direct line to The Collective. I'm a nexus to its guidance and embrace to it in ways that probably few can understand from experience. I feel what the world feels. I am shown where to look for the right things to burden my attention, and I'm sure that when my time is here that it has a ride for me, just waiting. There's a lot going on with me and the whole. I'm a channel to The Collective and accept that as a role I sometimes play in this world. I get tired of explaining myself as being an unusual in a world that mirrors my strangeness, but it's a truth about me that fulfills itself in a myriad of ways, whether I was looking for them or not. Ever had a god get straight in your face? Fun.

***I wrote this a little while back and had it on another blog that I've decided not to continue with, but I'm moving stuff over here. Still seemed like there might be something here worth sharing. Love YOU!***

Even though it has taken me being seriously cornered into writing, I've been processing my whole life like a story. Funny enough, if you aren't as down in your own skin to start with, it is sometimes easier to review your own life. Worse is that part of you is really having all these extreme emotional experiences, or you also wouldn't be useful as someone who transmutes pain and hardship for The Collective. 

I'm sure I'll talk about my relationship with The Collective, being a Collective, and roles I play in relation to Collectives around. Really, The Collective is a bunch of aspects around The Divine, Source, The Universe, or anyone's personal Hologram and Construct. Living a lifetime is getting to meet yourself over and over again as The Universe. Hopefully you've got some meaning about why you're here, and if you need one then probably figuring out a Purpose is as good as it gets. 

I'm so overloaded with Meaning and Purpose that I had to Surrender to The Path. Picking any one direction seems like a mistake, and some of the time I even remember that the reason I have so much potential is because I'm intended to be a leader to something greater than me that hasn't come to term, a world and dream being made before it's my day to step up to things. Other times, I feel for sure that I'm a bomb of potential and so good with being guided that the minders of the hologram know they could bust off a wicked new timeline just by getting me to be weird and creative sometime. I'm good with either explanation. 

My favorite is times when I say "I don't know" and go around like I really don't. No judgments, no weighing things, no filter, no vision, no memories, no mind. It takes a bit of a reminder to go back to that and sometimes a good narrative gets lost forever. But It's hard to be mad or have sour feelings for things that aren't there to care about. Dissociation on Steroids? Maybe. 

Also, not knowing and not judging allows me to find out what The Universe is guiding me about by following it step by step. 

Even starting back to writing again in the time I'm in is part of how it is guiding me.