Summary of my Journey as a Psychic/Shaman/Gonzo/Goddess Etc.

So many incredible things that happened when I was a kid 

• Psychic as a Kid 
• Automatic Writing 
• Owl visits
• Dreams & Visions
• Direct communication through Subconscious
• NDE
  
• First Awakening
• Training by Trees & Spirits 
• Seeing Ghosts
• Haunting Desire for God/Spirit
• Visits by Spirits while I was still veiled I have since seen anew
• Imagination out the hoo-hah 
• Conversion to Shamanism as a Teenager (after already getting Baptized, cause who would wanna have this kind of consciousness but not know Jesus?)
• Awkwardness and Rejection
• Friendship and Connection
  
• Being Parentified and the Emotional Leader of my home
• Relying on my guides and mind and self-help books instead of counseling
• Never Not Believing in My Perceptions and Experiences
• Realizing I'm an Empath
• Lessons of being the Scapegoat
• Lessons of Violent Caretakers and Peers
• Lessons of Boldness and Opinion
• Lessons of Privacy and Written Sanctuary
• Lessons of Poetry and subtle energy relationships 

Continuing the Journey in my 20s 

• Seeing Auras
• Having Teachers 
• Paganism 
• Sex, Kink, Relationships 
• My Dark Side 
• Depression 
• Succumbing to Addiction 
• Learning about Health 
• Confronting Mortality 
• College
• City Life and Country Life
• Navigating
• Research and Looking Deeper
• Interviewing People about Anything, even tragedies
• Being a Medium with Ghosts and Spirits
• Understanding through Hoodoo and natural energy elements
• Dreamwalking / Realmshifting
• Automatic Writing with Intention
• Healing myself OVER & OVER
• Energy reading, and Oracles 
• The Call of The Void
• Cults and circles
• Other Peoples' Mental Health or Spiritual Crises
• My Narcissism 
• Loving and Losing
• Attempts to return to Christianity failed
• Attempts to Deny my Experiences and Perceptions as an Atheist were Deeply Depressing
• Ghosts in all my houses, since I lived in an historic area
  
  
  
  
  
  
  

Lessons Continued into my 30s

• Starting over with what ya got
• City Government, systems, and departments
• All the Teachers and Secret Boyfriends around the Scenes
• Power and navigating scenes
• Being a *Medium* Fish in a Small Pond
• Confidence
• Guilt and Responsibility
• Rebelliousness against The System
• Bad Health and Healing Again
• Partnerships and Best Friends
• Seeing myself a Cutie
• Becoming a Whole Foods Plant Based eater and that world
• Getting healthier and yo-yo-ing some more with self-worth 
• Singing more at Karaoke 
• Energy Reading Refined 
• Seeing my hands and energy with my eyes closed
• Psychic Trust Refined
• Learning to Trust The Universe
• Learning to Trust My Guides/Feelings
• Automatic Writing, Designs, and tapping my Subconscious Refined
• Love and Losing
• Love and Connection
• Romance and Disappointment
• Cults, Circles, and the Good/Bad in them
• Moving 1,000 miles from where I grew up
• Deeper Friendships 
• Cannabis as Sacrament 
• Helping People as a Hobby
• Lessons on People Pleasing and Fixing vs Healing and Helping
  
  
  
  
  

The Journey Continues in my 40s

• Confronting and Accepting Being Enlightened
• Confronting and Accepting Spiritual Power
• Confronting and Accepting Vessel-hood 
• Confronting and Accepting Timeline Switches
  
• Confronting and Accepting I'm Not Just Human
• Confronting and Accepting All My Suffering Is A Teacher (I'm grateful)
• Confronting and Accepting Relationships as Teachers
• Confronting and Accepting Communication and Round The Clock Monitoring
• Confronting and Accepting My Success is Hidden to 3D and Low Vibe (Nothing is as weird as glitching someone out by talking about things they're not allowed to hear and realizing it as it's happening.)
• Confronting and Accepting Tech as Spirit 
• Refining my Understanding of My Habits
• Refining my Understanding of My Psychic Abilities
• Refining my Understanding of  My Voice
• Refining my Understanding of Other People
• Refining my Understanding of How to Mix Energies for Purpose
• Refining my Understanding of Reading Energy
• Refining my Understanding of Love and Compassion
• Refining my Understanding of MY PURPOSE
• Refining my Understanding of Crystalized Mind 
• Refining my Understanding of The Collective
• Refining my Understanding of Source
• Refining my Understanding of Divine Feminine
• Divine Feminine & Divine Masculine interactions 
• Ghosts and Ancestors Communicating 
• Angels and Aliens and Deities Communicating
  
• Trusting the messages even when they tell me grandiose things like: I'm a Goddess, an Ascended Master Returned, and a Buddha who will Inherit The Kingdom
• Having conscious meetings in my day that are Astral Meetings I don't remember from my dreams
• Recognizing my life as Living In A Dream
• Realizing the words in books hold energy whether anyone is looking
• Trusting my Guides to Leave Home with Just What I Have
• Trusting my Guides to Lose Everything and that I have Everything I need Inside
• Trusting my Guides to Show Me How on Anything
• Trusting my Guides to Channel Messages
• Having things I need manifest in the perfect time
• Finding things I will need later on the same day
• Signs and how to read them
• Cannabis and Mushrooms as Sacrament 
• Trusting my Guides to bring me Everything I Need, including scenarios and lessons
• Trusting my Guides that if I don't have it, I Don't Need It... like now when I miss having a car
• Trusting my Guides to show me what I needed to know about Homelessness and being Homeless
• Using my gifts and abilities in places very foreign to me with no phone/tech
• Refining my Understanding of my Presence, Aura, Finding Things, Time-Bending
  
  
  
  
  

OK! I'm just 44, so I am very on-track. It's been a Great Walkabout so far on this one, and I know it won't ever be done, probably even when this body is. 

Some more I thought of while it was still perking in my wild as hell brain: 

Realizing repeat persons and energies scene to scene
Hearing myself sing in 5D
Finding out i talk in tongues
Finding confidence in my practice
Finding out I can dance
Learning more about presence and being in the moment
Learning my allergies the hard way
Learning to forgive teachers who caused suffering and painful lessons enough to find gratitude
Getting a hysterectomy and declining to be a mother
Being in experiences of divine motherhood and realizing everyone everywhere is my child
Learning how spirit communicates revelations as unfolding like the socratic method
Studying mind and mental health to better understand myself and others